Those liberating moments

Isn’t it a good feeling when you realize that you’re doing something wrong and then act on it. Like for example I realized that my sleeping schedule was all over the place, but now I am committed to stick to a set schedule. Also, I believe that one must eat healthy to feed ones brain in order to have clarity.

2019-02-28

• Today I learned that I a new CI tool for symfony from a colleague of mine.
• I am grateful for a great conversation with my colleague at lunch. Instead of listening to podcasts I sat down with a person and had a conversation. I heard somewhere that networking is #1 you can do. I started believing in it.
• My wife is getting more and more depressed (literally) because we are having trouble consummating. I feel okay about it, because I believe we will get there eventually. But I cannot tell the same about my other half. She is stressed out badly.

So far so good, 1 year of marriage

We’ve been married for 1 year now. It’s a piece of cake. There were ups and downs, swings and stalling. But here we are happy and alive.

I’m grateful for:

• Finally being back in a nice sleeping pattern
• Realizing that I have successfully applied my knowledge of systemized approach to working. I.e. making a plan for the project that I’m doing at work.
• Going to the gym for somewhat a month already

All getting better

After we gave the dog back to the pound, we had a huge fight. Some emotional words were thrown that really hurt me. But I licked my wounds and recovered in a few days.

Now it’s getting much better. I’m looking whether there is anything else holding us back on having kids, but can’t find anything. So we will probably start trying. I’m really hoping for an easy and fast impregnation 🙂

I’m grateful for:

• Overcoming the hard fight we had
• Being able to focus at work today
• The ability to write this entry

Increasingly hard to find time, even without having kids

Lately it felt that there is no time to do anything for yourself. All time gets eaten up by work and trying to find ways to invest, save money.

Actually, I spend so much energy on those things, that I sometimes catch myself just dozing away looking at nonsense videos, 9gag or whatever.

Work has been great, although…

I was owning or even living my work for the past month… But my wife started to feel left out. We had numerous emotional talks about this. I told her that I do this for our family and our ability to pay bills, support our lifestyle and make a better future for ourselves.

But it’s true, it is taking too much time out which I could spend with her. Not sure what should I do, because I am finding new things and revisiting old ones to do in daytime. I. e. studying finance and looking for ways to get big bucks through passive income.

Cool idea for future job applications I am going to post

Today I was revamping my small minesweeper project a bit. It could serve me as a portfolio item to showcase my knowledge with React and JavasScript in general.

My wife gave me this funny idea that I should add this game to my future job applications with a sub-title “If you can’t win this game, I don’t want to work with you”. I thought that was hilarious.

Accomplishments

1. Made my minesweeper demo accessible through my personal website
2. Went out for a swim in the pool
3. Allowed myself to rest all day

A simple way to find what you really want in life

What? Why? Revised What? These are the questions of my super simple framework that I accidentally found out to be working really well.

Feeling burned out and dealing with it

I made love to my wife yesterday. We were having great animal sex until we got tired and thirsty. Now that I look back, I realise that we were having sex for an hour or so, but I did not make her cum (she does get an orgasm when it’s actually amazing). Maybe it was not animal sex after all.

Designers should design for users who are visiting for the first time

Hey there fellow website designers. I have a quick rant for you:
Users should be able to understand what is the website’s purpose in 5 seconds!